This past year was an amazing one. It brought a lot of growth for me personally. I learned a lot about who I am as a person, and unfortunately learned that sometimes people just are not very nice. I did not discuss details on my blog this year, but there were multiple situations this year that tested my character. I felt multiple times as though God was allowing me to be tested in situations that were inwardly tearing me down. I was so confused by those situations, but at the same time I learned a lot about myself. I learned that sometimes you HAVE to stand up for yourself, sometimes you will be falsely accused and all you can do is laugh about it, and I learned that paper is stronger than words. All in all he taught me the power of forgiveness. Someone who I look up to as a Godly example messaged me as I was dealing with a big issue that "God is always good even when people are not". That is so true. He is always good, and he loves the people who did you wrong. That realization was eye opening to me. I learned to pray for the people who hurt me, and that helped me start to forgive. Now, forgiveness does not mean you forget. You learn, you move on, and you put up your guard. I had to do this multiple times this year. I still struggle with it. However, God has taught me that "He has bigger plans for me, his way is BETTER, and that he will bless me for remaining calm". My goal in all of these situations was to walk away with no regrets about the way I handled myself, and I am confident that I have no regrets. It was definitely a year of learning lessons, that I wish I would not have had to learn, but it helped me grow, strive, and become the woman (and business woman) that I am today.
I also watched my children grow and change so much this year!! It is crazy how fleeting their toddler hood is. Inwardly I have struggled with that realization a lot this year as well. I am continuously torn between wanting to only be a mommy, and wanting to grow and expand my business. I am still finding the balance, and it may never be a perfect balance, but I hope to find one that works for us.
This year I watched my baby girl turn ONE!! That seemed like such a big number, and yet here we are a year later on the verge of turning TWO! Time...you are so fleeting.
My sweet boy started growing up, and really wanting to grow up on me. I will never forget this sweet day.
We took Caleb on his first date with mommy and daddy, and to his first movie!
We survived a tornado!! Still the scariest day of my life. I am still trying to convince my husband to build me a bunker.
We celebrated Easter.
Caleb melted my heart!
I was a nanny to five for a month and a half.
Caleb had a special day with daddy.
We had a wonderful vacation and summer.
Caleb turned Three
Caleb started Preschool.
Kinlee is potty trained.
All in all when I look back on 2012. This post holds the pictures that will forever be embedded in my memory. Hot summer days, spent playing in water at our old house.