Giving In

The time has come for me to give into the fact that my body may never be the same :(.  It has been 12 weeks since Caleb was born, and though I have lost all of my weight, my body is one flabby mess.  My hubby and I plan to begin P90X next week in order to tone up (more posts about that to come). However, the fact is right now my jeans do NOT fit me. When you go from this...

To this....

It seems to take a toll on your body! This little face was worth it,

 but I am ready to have my body back! I have one pair of jeans that I can button, and that is only because they are crack lover/showers/annoying to wear.  I have been sporting the Bella Band since giving birth, and I have to admit that it is no longer "cute" or "sweet" because there is no longer a sweet little pumpkin growing in my belly. No now it just screams "YOUR TO FAT TO BUTTON YOUR PANTS" at me haha. Also it is just annoying because it constantly rolls up.  Anyway, I was not going to give into the horrid shopping experience of buying new jeans, because I was going to be the ONE who could fit in pre pregnancy jeans automatically haha.  I know that I am blessed to have lost all of my weight, but to me my body is just different. I plan to tone up, but I haven't done abs in over a year, and I am so out of shape. Working out is going to kick my butt, and I do not know how long it will take to get my body back where I want it. Soooo, I am giving in. Today Caleb and I will be venturing the the wonderful GAP Outlet. NKY has such an amazing outlet store, and I plan to purchase a couple of pair of 10 dollar jeans. That's right Gap jeans for 10 dollars.  I have seen them there before, so I know they exist :). I decided that since it is my PLAN to fit back into my pre-preggo  jeans eventually that I will start cheap with my big jeans for now.  Hopefully I can find some nice fitting, cute jeans. I need them desperately (I mean there is a UK tailgate on Sat. and I have no pants to wear)!! I will let you know how the shopping goes :). Have a great Friday.

Also, please keep baby Stellan and his family in your prayers. I have read on others blogs that he is back in the PICU this week (it's his 1st b-day week). I have not been following their story directly, because I have a hard time reading about sick little ones, and it makes me freak out about every little mark/odd sound Caleb makes. However, this family needs our prayers, and this sweet momma could probably use words of encouragement right now.

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