Friday, October 30, 2009

Giving In

The time has come for me to give into the fact that my body may never be the same :(.  It has been 12 weeks since Caleb was born, and though I have lost all of my weight, my body is one flabby mess.  My hubby and I plan to begin P90X next week in order to tone up (more posts about that to come). However, the fact is right now my jeans do NOT fit me. When you go from this...

To this....

It seems to take a toll on your body! This little face was worth it,

 but I am ready to have my body back! I have one pair of jeans that I can button, and that is only because they are crack lover/showers/annoying to wear.  I have been sporting the Bella Band since giving birth, and I have to admit that it is no longer "cute" or "sweet" because there is no longer a sweet little pumpkin growing in my belly. No now it just screams "YOUR TO FAT TO BUTTON YOUR PANTS" at me haha. Also it is just annoying because it constantly rolls up.  Anyway, I was not going to give into the horrid shopping experience of buying new jeans, because I was going to be the ONE who could fit in pre pregnancy jeans automatically haha.  I know that I am blessed to have lost all of my weight, but to me my body is just different. I plan to tone up, but I haven't done abs in over a year, and I am so out of shape. Working out is going to kick my butt, and I do not know how long it will take to get my body back where I want it. Soooo, I am giving in. Today Caleb and I will be venturing the the wonderful GAP Outlet. NKY has such an amazing outlet store, and I plan to purchase a couple of pair of 10 dollar jeans. That's right Gap jeans for 10 dollars.  I have seen them there before, so I know they exist :). I decided that since it is my PLAN to fit back into my pre-preggo  jeans eventually that I will start cheap with my big jeans for now.  Hopefully I can find some nice fitting, cute jeans. I need them desperately (I mean there is a UK tailgate on Sat. and I have no pants to wear)!! I will let you know how the shopping goes :). Have a great Friday.

Also, please keep baby Stellan and his family in your prayers. I have read on others blogs that he is back in the PICU this week (it's his 1st b-day week). I have not been following their story directly, because I have a hard time reading about sick little ones, and it makes me freak out about every little mark/odd sound Caleb makes. However, this family needs our prayers, and this sweet momma could probably use words of encouragement right now.


Meant to be a mom said...

I will definitely pray for baby Stelan.
Also I'm so jealous you have a gap outlet you get to go to. I love the baby gap clothes but we don't have an outlet here.
Last, I know exactly what you mean about the after baby flabs. I have them too. I've thinned out but my stomach has a nice roll of extra skin hanging out on it. Not attractive. Let me know if your workout works. I just got the ok from my doc to start to work out so next week I will. Hopefully it will help. If you have any luck with the middle blub, let me know.

Lea Liz said...

Girl, I know exactly!! At least you have lost all of your weight Brody is 10 months old and I still have 10 lbs I need to lose!!! I am majorly starting a workout once Brody quits nursing ( hopeuflly around a year) I had ot go get the big jeans I am sure you look great tho!! I love that outlet, I went there for maternity stuff I need to go again!!

Lindsay said...

I know exactly what you mean, I lost all my weight but everything was....different! Give it a few more months, I felt like I got even more of my "shape" back around 4-6 months. Also, if it helps....I feel like I bounced back faster after baby #2!
Thank you so much for all the sweet comments you have left on my posts lately, I really appreciate your thoughts and prayers!