My dear sweet babies:
I am so thankful for you. I am so beyond words in love with you. You have blessed my life. You have made me better. You have taught me to love and to love hard. This fall has been amazing with you, and I always want to remember you both at this sweet innocent stage of life. You are both so wonderful, so loving, so cuddly, and so wild. You are my greatest gift, achievement, and the purpose for which I live.
Caleb, you have grown so much so fast. This fall I really began to realize how big you actually are. As we participated in all the activities of fall I could not help but reflect back on the past two years of life. I could not help but remember you as the sweet, tiny, sleeping baby you were the first time we brought you to a pumpkin patch.I could not help but reflect on the love, excitement, and happiness that daddy and I had in our hearts for you at that time.
LOVED to sit with the pumpkins, and you were so cute waddling through the patch trying to lift them. Those memories will forever be within my heart. This year I will remember you as the grown up, opinionated 2 year old that you are. Gone are the days when you would sit and pose for pictures, pumpkins are no longer as exciting as pretending to drive a tractor, and you now run through the patches instead of toddle. However, you are more breath taking, and more love able than ever before. You are the greatest son I could have ever asked for, and I want you to know that I love you beyond words. I love you when you are upset, I love you when we "talk" to each other, I love playing cars with you, I love cuddling with you, I love reading stories with you, and I especially love dancing with you. You are perfect, you are created in God's image, and you are meant to do GREAT things. I want you to always remember that you have a family that loves you unconditionally, who will always be here to carry you through the hard times, and to celebrate with you through the good times. I am so thankful for this fall with you, my little "ME" (your name for Caleb).
joy. You have a constant smile on your face 24/7, and you have brought a magical new love to my life. You are so attached to me, and I am so thankful for that. I look forward to the years to come, and our mother-daughter relationship that we will form. However, right not in this moment I cling to your sweet, innocent infancy. You are so beautiful. I see the world in a whole new light when I see it through your eyes. You remind me to sit and take in God's beauty. You love playing with grass, simple, green grass. You remind me to take the time to marvel in the simplicity of life. Your smile, your excitement for sitting on hay, the way you would bounce and squeal while posing for pictures, and your beauty are some of the memories from this fall that I will always hold in my heart. I will never forget our closeness when I carried you in my sling. I will always treasure riding the hayrides, walking through the patches, and cuddling you close in that sling. I know within the blink of an eye you will be a bouncing toddler next year, and gone will be the days of cuddling with mama. I am so in love with you. I am so in love with the tiny person that God has trusted me with. I am so in love with the fact that you look like me, that you love to hold me tight, and that you are my daughter. I too want you to know that daddy and I will ALWAYS be there for you. I never want you to feel as though you can not come to me. I will always listen first, help you through what your struggling with, and then try to find ways to make your heart happy again.
Caleb and Mckinlee, I so wish I could bottle you up forever at this sweet, innocent age. I wish that I could hold you tight, and keep you away from all the hurt in this world. I know that just as falls will come and go, so will you change and grow. I hope you both love each other, and forever support each other. I hope you always know how much you are loved. I love you both forever and always, and you will always be my babies.